Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ Saturday, January 30, 2010
can i leave this untitled?

Hello love.

Sorry for the effing long lost updates.
God, been neglecting this blog.
Okay, now it feels so weird that im blogging again. Heh
I've just realized how many times i apologized a day.
I apologized to everyone especially to ma boyfriend.

Ma day sucks big time today!
And i don feel like talking bout' it.
The only person that i talked to was Yaya,
she was so kind to be a good listener eventho she's currently out with her boyfriend.
I'm scuha bother.

So i was supposed to attend ma job induction earlier this morning but i was late and thought there won't be any chance for me to get the job cause if i really can't make it on time today, this would be the fcuking second time im gonna missed the induction.
And im so gonna regret it. It'sa damn good job and well-paid.
I texted the other guy, Darren who was on behalf of Nick, from RWS Discovery and asked him whether i'll still get to attend the induction if im late. He was being too kind to even wait for another half an hour when i was supposed to reach there at 8 am sharp.
It was quite crucial that i took the advantage of Darren's and Nick's generosity. Ohh well.
So i hurriedly freshed up, get dressed and brought all the requirements needed.
When i was inda train heading towards Harbour Front, i received a call from Dad.
So i picked up his call and he urged me to return home as soon as possible.
He said there's an urgent matter that he wanna inform me about.
I was lost and curious. Yet he insist not to tell me bout it through the phone call as he thought it would be quite a long conversation. Coincidentally, Darren called and asked whether im yet to reach the destination. Unfortunately, i had to tell him that i can't make it. I told him that i just received an urgent call and i gotta catch up with something. So i apologized.
Sigh it was hard to just left it behind. I was greatly hoping to get the job inda first place. Now everything just crashed and burned. What a waste. Sigh.
So I dropped at one of the stations which i don even heck care to even take a glance at where i am and took the opposite train and headed home as fast as i could. God i was brisk walking till' i sweat like a pig! Okay fake, i don sweat like an 'oink oink!' la. Hehe!
Once i reached home, ma make-up melted and i looked ridiculously hideous!
Dad told me to sit down before he emphasize on what he's desperately want to tell me.
After he was done, i somehow protested on this particular part that i totally 100% disagree.
WE ended up quarrelling. I had enough of it, i had enough of eveything.
I dashed to ma room and ma door shut with a bang.
He then knocked ma door yet i stay withdrawn. Still he spoke out, "Don't go anywhere today nor tonight. Stay safe. I'm going off."
Sigh. I threw ma bag and just laid onda bed, at the same time tryna restrain maself.
I started having moodswings and keeps grunting on everything gets in ma way.
I was one-step closer to breakdown. I loathe it when me and dad quarrelled. It feels scuks BIG TIME occasionally. Without ma awareness i fell asleep with ma dress, make-up, and accessorise on. The moment i woke up, i received 5-6 text messages from boyfriend, and two of my friends.
I was supposed to meet boyfriend today after the induction. The planned was he's gonna fetch me then we will chill out together or maybe with his friends. Sigh. I'm so disappointed and guilty. We were really hoping to meet each other today. Sigh (okay, i expressed to many 'sigh')

Why am i sharing bout everything happened today?
Didn't i said it at the first place that i ain't talking bout it? Heh, silly me.

Ohh and boyfriend informed me that Faozi, his pal, just met with an accident.
Pity him. He told me that he looks pretty tragic.
Hope you get well soon Faozi! Eventho you're actually not aware that i'm wishing you through ma blog. heh

P/S: missing boyfriend dreadfully. (truckloads of 'Sigh')

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